I HATE IT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!

There is no way of expressing how much hate i have for living here in Fresno or even in California. I am way depressed, even thought of killing myself....being a gay Mormon in Fresno is so freaking hard and is beyond and challenge that i will face. i just joined a new site for gay Mormons and i some how thought that it would be easier to find people from California, but no......it fact its mostly people from Utah or Arizona . But only two people from California and go figure they both live in the Los Angles Area. WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALL I WANT IS TO FIND ANOTHER GAY MORMON HERE IN FRESNO OR CLOVIS AREA I DON'T CARE IF I HAVE TO DRIVE A LITTLE WAYS OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DON'T WANT TO BE THE ONLY GAY MORMON IN FREAKING FRESNO/CLOVIS AREA.

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  1. Andrew AJanuary 24, 2012 at 7:13 AM

    I hear you man. I heard this morning on the radio that one of the lies/weapons that the devil uses is to tell us that we are 'alone'. I'm sure there are other people nearby that you can relate to.

    I hope things start looking up.

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  2. El GenioJanuary 24, 2012 at 11:38 PM

    Yes, being a gay Mormon can be tough. Really tough. Don't be afraid to look for gay friends/support outside of Mormonism. Some of my best friends are not members of the church, and they have been incredibly helpful and understanding.

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  3. EricJanuary 25, 2012 at 12:30 AM

    the problem is my gay friends, well are very supportive when it come to being a mormon. So its hard to find someone else who lives around here that is mormon and gay.

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  4. TrevJanuary 25, 2012 at 11:27 PM

    There have got to be lots down there. Have you tried these?

    - Affirmation
    - North Star
    - Gay Christian Network (not Mormon, but they promote support and fellowship for gay Christians who either feel called to celibacy or seek a committed "monogamous"--there really needs to be a non-sexed term for that word!--relationship)

    There's also Evergreen if you are desperate for someone to relate to and don't mind their approach to the issue.

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    1. EricJanuary 25, 2012 at 11:45 PM

      I have been to north star, but that setup to where if you have a problem or question and get response from various other gay people. I dont really care for Evergreen, and also the nearest place is San Fransisco area or the Los Angles area. i have not heard of the other two site i will look into them, thank you for you input.

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